To set this up properly, I need to give you a little background. I’m a single mom who has home schooled for 11 years. I am able to do this by being self-employed and working from home. This has been a very tough year financially for a number of reasons. The combination of large unexpected expenses, coupled with losing other sources of income, has created the perfect recipe for worry and stress.
Lately I’ve been praying through decisions like selling my home or going back into the corporate world. With my youngest in her senior year, both of these have serious implications.
Tonight I was feeling the stress more than usual. I was doing some monthly invoicing to clients and reviewing work in the pipeline. I’m looking at accounts receivable and trying to decide how secure I feel about what I see there for the next few months. This is how it goes when you are self-employed. It is often feast or famine and income can be rather inconsistent.
With all of this on my mind, I decided I needed a break. So I ran a hot bubble bath, lit some candles, and started the music playlist on my Droid entitled “Relax.” I sank into my luxurious cocoon of soapy paradise and watched the birds jump from branch to branch in the tree outside the window. I was reminded of the Scripture that says “So don’t be afraid, you are worth more than many sparrows.” (Matthew 10:31). As I’m lost in my thoughts I realized that the song now playing on my phone was “God Will Take Care of You” by Plumb. I thought, “Well, how fitting is that?”
Since I was waiting on an email of a design proof, I decided to check my email (yes, I’m still in the tub). I found 3 emails all with new business referrals. So, here I am. In the tub, watching the birds and thinking about Matthew 10:31, listening to “God Will Take Care of You,” and now I have 3 emails with what looks like new business. At this point, I began to cry. Not because I was worried. Not because I was stressed. I cried because I realized how much I have been trying to do things myself. How God just wanted to me to rely on Him and I was too busy running around being worried to feel His peace.
But God wasn’t done with His lesson yet. My playlist was set to run one song after another until the list was completed. The list ran in order up until “God Will Take Care of You” and then something weird happened. With no explanation I can give, that song repeated itself a few songs later. It was if God was making sure that I knew He was speaking to me. Talk about a humbling moment!!
To my precious Mom and Dad who are struggling with the recent news of Dad’s prostate cancer; To my oldest daughter, who struggles to meet her rent every month while she finishes her education; To my second oldest daughter, who is trying to find her own way in the world; To my second youngest daughter, who is leaving for missionary school this Saturday; To my youngest daughter, who wonders sometimes if her mother is losing her mind; To everyone reading this blog who wonders about that health diagnosis, that financial concern, or whatever you struggle with… I just wanted you all to know what God shared with me tonight – God Will Take Care of You.